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sorry my dear friend for not being here, perhaps when you needed someone d most..

and you just kept everythg to yourself, always being so strong(: i really do admire you!

i dont know whats gg on, but i really hope youre sincerely okay.
and i'd like you to know you've always got me even though we've drifted since uni!

i dont really know what to say, but i'd just really wanna commit you to my prayers and to God bcos i guess only He can uds what youre gg thru, and He's the one who will ultimately make sense of everythg, and who's steadfast love carries you thru every obstacle..
and i pray for my dear friend, that you will be surrounded by loving family and friends who will give you great advice on whatever youre going thru, who will pick you up when you fall down..

i love you!

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[Dec. 30th, 2009|02:20 am]

myrunningaway

I spoke the truth and said I deserved better. That any other guy can perform the duties of a boyfriend better. The unspeakable of how Ron was definitely a better boyfriend. I only said them because the above statements were all true.
In the end, I knew I will never rest in peace, will never move on if I just rest in. I had to run. Ran, I did, barefooted and without thought, I just ran. Pulled him over and did what I had to. I slapped him.
That's for all the days I had to wait for night to fall, for the half-nights I had to endure until his arrival to well, sleep with me. I know I'm not a whore and all, I'm not paid. But, well, that's just how I feel I've been treated most of these whiles. I feel special, no doubts, but the consistency in whore treatment rules out the times I feel more of a person.
And I don't care if it's my fault or our faults, I just need, for one time, that you acknowledge me and how I feel. The one time never came.
I know I said I will try to understand your commitments. But it definitely doesn't help when the next day, the NEXT day, you tell me you'll be done soon at 12+ and I still don't hear from you at 3+. I am so disgruntled, so unhappy and I feel like a whore.
I gave up so much for you just to hear you say you went into a long distance relationship even though you never wanted to, I gave up so much for you to have to endure with the paid of statements like it's damn fucked up when you come back and I have to make time for you (because it's unnatural), I gave up so much for you just to know you won't consider an exchange to Melbourne if you're made captain (which you most probably will), I gave up so much for you to have you break up with me because of poker, I gave up so much for you because you mean the most to me despite everyone else being a better boyfriend only to have you walk out on me even when I tell you if you're doing this, to never come back.
People ask me why, again and again, and I can never explain. I never will be able to explain, I just can't and it just is like that. Perhaps, we are never meant to work since you were not mine to begin with. I owe my life and am forever indebted to, the girl whose boyfriend I took. This is Karma, at its best.

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La derniere nuit

[Dec. 27th, 2009|06:44 am]

Last day in Paris!!! Super super sad):
so we went to get d tix for cirque d'hiver in d morn and took a rly long walk to george v at champs elysees to go to heon's uncle restaurant called yang to look for another uncle but he wasn't thr.
And so uncle boon treated us once agn I feel so bad!he even brought us to d basement whr d kitchen is and whr there were undergrd storage rooms too cool!(: and treated us to a nice coconut icecream. I'm rly rly grateful tk have met him bcos he's so generous even thou he barely know us.. Plus he has a cute son!

Then we went to d cirque in d evening and boy was it so so worth my €23!!! there was a live orchestra and even thou we were at d cheapest zone c the view was awesome!had lions and horses and small goats and pony shows, awesome trapeze and acrobat stunts, funny skits; I rly like d fake balancing eggs and fake bucket of water used to scare d audience aft having performed w d real ones!!and magic show where they changed their clothes at d speed of light! I have no idea how!
I can't wait to catch e next show(;

dinner was at Leon de bruxelles which was rly mediocre and i'd prefer d one we had at reims still! Then we headed for cheap crepes on rue rambuteau near our hse which is directly opp pompidou and finally camwhoring all d way home to our 6th floor and super difficult to open door!

Voilà!c'est fini and time to head back to work from tue

Joyeux Noel(:

[Dec. 26th, 2009|04:15 am]

Merry christmas to all(:
spent the morning at notre dame where we saw a defile of police sounding their horns with Pere Noel in d middle throwing sweets to d crowd!which country had police like tt! So freaking awesome! and early aftn at jardin du luxembourg (: thr was sun todayyyy! En fin!

Then we headed to heon uncle's house for Christmas lunch!boy was it awesome!!!! We had a spread of yummy salad with pear apple lychee and lobster(: and foie gras, lobsters, oysters, steak with potato, escargots(: super satisfied! And I love how warm and happy their family is! Tots treated me as one and I'm rly rly blessed(: even had presents and angbaos!(: thank youuuuu!
And the baby was so cute! Kept smilin and even knew what's bisous(:
Oh yes it's different fr sg also in d sense tt they all open and wear their presents immed which is rly sweet(: I can't wait to host a party in my hse too!

Christmas eve(:

[Dec. 25th, 2009|07:38 am]

Went to jardin des Tuileries today before heading towards Madeleine for laduree(: macarons!!! There was alr a long queue but we managed to skip d queue since we weren't getting a gift box. O guess presentations really matter!and we had a gd deal of 15 for €19 considering one I'd at €1,50 and Pierre herme's one is €1,95. plus it's freaking awesome and orgasmic.
We headed to la maison de chocolat but it had a rly long queue but didn't sell hot choco that I thought they had):

so we headed to le musee du parfum for a tour(: it's rly interesting and I learnt abt distillation using fats and flowers to get d essence, that perfume originated fr south of France, grasse. there's diff uses of wine initially such as spiritual thn medicinal b4 it became for aesthetic. Diff conc of perfume exists too: perfume which is 15% essence then perfume water, eau de toilette and cologne. I cldnt resist perfume and bought one back! Did u know tt
glass acty damages d quality of perfume so it's best tk keep them in aluminium bottles tt are gold plated.

Then we headed back to la fayette to while time away(: it's a pity ispahan is not in this season..quelle domage! But we had free chocolates at d entrance of both Pierre herme tt went to(:
Then we went to tour eiffel passing by pretty marche de Noel on champs élysées but it started to rain and it was freezing! Supposed to meet cg and his girl but it was too cold so it didn't work out..nonetheless pretty to see the Paris scenery fr up above(:

We then headed to commerce for dinner but d restaurant was close! Mince!!!! But we settled for lebanise food that was rly good and the ambience wad fs and the waiter wad rly rly friendly and gave me extra rice(: I shld rly go for him(:

joyeux Noel to all(:

Laduree macarons

[Dec. 25th, 2009|07:17 am]

Laduree macarons
1. chocolate: light but chocolately still
2. Green tea: I like d subtle taste that slowly intensifies after d first tasting
3. Vanille: just as good(:
4. Rose: reminded me of my body lotion but it's rly light and has a light tinge of rose on aftertaste
5. Figue: strong taste but not overly sweet
6. Dark chocolate: I love bittersweet choc and this is indeed nicely done
7. Green lemon: light and refreshing a lit sorbet-ish
8. Framboise: tastes a lit like jam for the filling but not too bad(: goes well with muscat wine

and all had a good ground almond taste after chewing that I've yet to encounter w othr macarons!

Part 2 tmr(:
Cassis centre tastes like Ribena, or like mark n Spencer's biscuit's centre filling
Hazelnut just like hazelnut
Coffee not overly strong a lit like icecream
Pistachio v diff taste fr others i've tried.. V light taste of pistachio and a stronger almond taste. Personally I'd prefer d outside ones

Paris

[Dec. 24th, 2009|06:22 am]

Started d day w a walking tour of le marais and saw a different side of Paris that I fell in love with(: Esp place des vosges which had red brick squares tt are so pretty(: would have loved to read a book thr (:
thn we rushed to d famous l'as du fallafel and had lunch a emporter(: yummy yummy!

Then we went iceskating at d rink near our place(: it was my first time so lotsa falling down! And I realize why ple can jog in d freezing cold bcos I was damn sweaty by d end!

Dinner was at le chartier which I fell in love with once agn(: what's more it was rly cheap considering I had a great meal at only €14 today(: would definitely go back(:
then it was Christmas lights at galerie la Fayette and printemps! If we were to compare sg's lights to theirs it would rly be qt pathetic!each vitrine was nicely decorated with Teddy bears, Russian dolls or gingerbread man(: and best of all everythg moved!!!!!! Omg! I think j was in cloud 9 except for d fact heon abs her bro were dead tired and so I'm not sure if we saw all d lights): nonetheless, pretty(:
looking forward to seeing cg and his gf tmr! D more d merrier!n maybe it's bcos I can't hangout w someone too long cos I don't like to see d ugly side of ple.. Just being pensive here!